I’m adaptable to change. Change has been in my life for as long as I can remember. I’ve watched my parents change jobs, our family change zip codes, pet dogs come and go. I’ve switched schools about twice and my teachers change every year. So, change? It’s a normal thing.
But I’ve never really been able to figure out how to say goodbye to the special people in my heart.
Like, my friend Rachel. We’ve been friends since Grade Four. Our friendship has had ups and downs, but I think we’ve turned out to be very good friends. She was one of the people I totally trusted, especially when we came to high school. When I learned that she would transfer away to Surigao after freshmen year, I was totally devastated. I didn’t want to say goodbye to a special friend – I wanted her to stay in Butuan with us.
But she had to go. She kept in touch. I still miss her everyday. When we came to college (she in CDO, and me in MNL), I learned that she would be going away to New Zealand during the first part of sophie year. I wanted to cry. I haven’t seen her in the longest time (save for the time when we had an outing during one of our kabarkada’s birthdays before we all went away to college), and then I won’t be seeing her for a long time again because she’s miles away. It’s hard. So Rach, I want to let you know how much I miss you. And that when you’re here in the country, you and I NEED to see each other. Yes, need.
I now wonder how I had been able to cope up with college without my high school buddies with me.
Anyways, sophomore year is about to end [but not before going through the storm of final exams!], and I have to say goodbye to a bunch of special people who made my sophomore year extra special – the seniors of my three orgs.
REGCOM
I was dead terrified of you all but I guess that’s usually the first impressions you get with taller people who have poker faces during meetings. But eventually, you guys opened up to us and made us feel welcome. And you guys will always be the first people whom I consider my family in Ateneo. I’ve written you all letters to show you how much I am grateful to have met you all, and I hope that you guys will do your best in the world beyond Ateneo.
The GUIDON (To Kai, Jee, Jem and Mayel)
If you guys are reading this, you should know upfront that when I read Kai’s post about the News staff now having a new editor, I cried. I’ve been tweeting Kai about letting go of the things you love so others can love it too, but lol. I have to listen to my own advise. I don’t want you guys to go. You’ve been so kind and hardworking and helpful. When I thought I was going to change careers [lolz], you guys have reminded me why I wanted to be a journalist in the first place. I should let you know that I am crying again. It really is hard to say goodbye to you people. You guys made Guidon home to me.
ACOMM 9
Idge posted a thank you picture in behalf of the seniors. And that triggered me to cry. ACOMM 9 officers are visionaries, in my opinion. So how will we, the next batch of officers, top that? It’s actually Culm night later, and I feel like I’m going to cry some more. I may not be as close to the EB as others are, but Idge, Mela, Javi, Rica, Berns and Lauren [Marielle, Doza, Rach and Roxy too!] have been of great inspiration to me. It’ll be hard to watch them go. They’ve made me get into things I never thought I would do. So thank you ACOMM, for making me challenge myself and for making me do things I never though I can do.
Okay, now that’s done, I’ll go in a corner and cry my eyes out. You don’t really say goodbye to special people. Goodbye isn’t the right word. Until next time, seniors. You will all be missed.